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Gender: Female
Interests: i love exercising(running, step aerobics, yoga, etc) calculating calories, reading, lounging around thrift stores, digging my feet into warm sand, looking around health stores/hippie stores, i used to love cooking...my UGW is 115lbs.
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Member Since:
7/24/2004
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| so the previous guy was a no-go. turns out to be kind of a big dork. i guess i just built him up to this amazing guy in my head because i didnt know him well. but i did find out this other guy has a crush on me. cute. we're going hiking friday.
i ran for about 35 minutes today (-420calsish?) and some weight training (-100 cals or so).
breakfast: coffee (50 cals)
lunch: 1/4 turkey sandwich, 10 fries, and a bowl of golden grahams. (how horrible)
it felt so good to run today. all my problems just fell away as i pounded away on that treadmill. it's very addicting.
hopefully a better day tomorrow.
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| we went out to 'coffee' yesterday, even though i endedup not getting it because it was 70 degrees out. but we talked and it's kind of scary how much we have in common and in my eyes how perfect he is. he loves old japanese movies, works out, wants to transfer to the same university, has long hair, glasses, and has a cute sense of humor in a geeky sort of way. i thought he was a lot older than me, but ends up only being one year older. the whole time we were hanging out i kept hacking up nasty because i'm sick. i really hope i didnt scare him or gross him out. i really hope he calls or asks me out again. i'm kind of scared to because i know i'll get rejected because i'm fat. i need to shed my body of everything bad and nasty. because i feel like a whale next to him. i think ill do some taebo before work today. | | |
| i feel like dieing. i feel like nasty shit. a FAT, nasty piece of shit.
ahhh...Mom...SHUT THE FUCK UP. stop talking to meee. good Allah. okay she stopped. so im planning on going to the gym tomorrow before class. i hope to see you there....actually no i dont.. yes. i dont know. i will let things fall into place as they should.
kobolesou na omoi...yogoleta tede kakiageta...sukoshidake nemui... | | |
| ah good morning...right now i'm just waiting for my ride. i'm really really hoping to get some coke though because i know it suppresses your appetite and everything. i know it's bad for you....but it's very frustrating to be morbidly obese. has anyone tried it and saw positive results appetite/weight wise? it's mega pricey too. GAH. so i'm drinking some fasting tea right now. i missed this stuff. i used to drink it like all the time. and i'm listening to some J-Pop...pretty good way of starting off the day, i'd say. i will not, I WILL NOT, wait around for your phone call. al;kdjflkajdlfkjadf | | |
| consumed probably somewhere between 400-800 cals today (i'm probably underestimating GAH) burned: running -400 cals and elliptical -200 cals. not bad, not good. what a blah.
OMG i got asked out on a date by the guy i had a crush on since last quarter. he just came up to me today asked if i wanted to go grab something to eat. i wasn't even thinking when i said yes and gave him my phone number. alkjdsflkjadlfj (random noises) anyways. i dont know what im doing? i shouldn't want a boyfriend. i shouldn't like anybody. i'm too busy, too selfcentered, and definetly too self-conscious to be having any kind of relationship. he's probably just making fun of me, or it's a bet or something. god i can't stop thinking about it it's driving me insane and pissing me off. i hate thinking about things like this and worrying over it. i have better things to do than think of a GUY. STUPID STUPID STUPID. maybe he wont even call. maybe he threw it away and laughed. alkdjflakjdflkjadslkfjdalfkajasldfj (more random noises). what's going to happen if i start to like him? what if he doesnt like me once he gets to know me? cant think straight need a cigarette. FUCK. | | |
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